Beauty in Sucide

Do you ever wonder why it is that no one's collected suicide notes and published them into one work? Is it insensitive to think about? Maybe the loved ones of the person in question would say so, as many people feel misplaced embarrassment when someone they knew fairly well decides to kill themselves.


Still people's last words are usually, in this writers opinion, some of the most simple and most meaningful pieces of prose ever written. And as such, it's a shame that the last words often remembered are not those of the average person but those of a famous figure. This action forever isolates normal human beings from that of the "greats" and those who will be remembered. Which obviously can't help keep them from killing themselves when a very small amount of people are going to remember them in the long run.


Going back to some famous last words we have:

Nicolas-Sebastien Chamfort – French Writer (6 April 1741 – 13 April 1794)

"I, Sebastien-Roch Nicolas de Chamfort, hereby declare my wish to die a free man rather than to continue to live as a slave in a prison. And so I leave this world, where the heart must either break or turn to lead."

George Eastman – Inventor (July 12, 1854 – March 14, 1932)

"To my friends: My work is done. Why wait?"

George Sanders – Actor (1906 – April 25, 1972)

"Dear World, I am leaving you because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool – good luck."

Sara Teasdale – American Poetess (August 8, 1884 – January 29, 1933)

"When I am dead, and over me bright April Shakes out her rain drenched hair, Tho you should lean above me broken hearted, I shall not care. For I shall have peace. As leafey trees are peaceful When rain bends down the bough. And I shall be more silent and cold hearted Than you are now."

Hunter S Thompson- American Writer (July 18, 1937 – February 20, 2005)

"No More Games. No More Bombs. No More Walking. No More Fun. No More Swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun – for anybody. 67. You are getting Greedy. Act your old age. Relax – This won’t hurt."

Yes most of these people are writers to some extent, but why shouldn't other people's notes be put into place as well. Most people leave a note when they commit or think about committing a suicide. That isn't just a coincidence, and I think that even the most "insignificant" person should get their last words remembered. After all they went to such lengths to be remembered for those words.
 

Casey Anthony Representing America

First let me explain that I'm actually currently living in the area of this case so it's a really big deal over here. Second if you have not heard about the Casey/Caylee Anthony trial then let me explain it for you.  Basically, long story short there was this lady, Casey Anthony, whose daughter, Caylee Anthony, was missing and then murdered. She was missing for over 24 hours before she was reported and a bunch of other stuff. It's a little foggy as far as evidence goes, but basically Casey Anthony was on trial fighting a death sentence for possibly killing her own daughter.  Long story short, there wasn't enough evidence to prove she killed her daughter to order a death sentence and so people on the internet are saying she "walked free."

If of course she actually committed the crime to begin with.  The evidence was really inconclusive as far as proving a murder, all it did prove was that the woman shouldn't have been a mother.  She wasn't a very good mother, and if anything is good about this it's the law that might come out of it. They are thinking of now making it illegal to wait over 24 hours to report a missing child.  I personally don't get why people are getting so worked up over this. Half the people on the internet are happy that the law protects people and the other half are furious that she wasn't giving the death sentence.

My personal opinion is that it's something you can't really do anything about and you can't help. I'm really glad for the addition of the new law, but I do agree that the woman was a terrible mother. There still wasn't enough evidence to give her the death sentence though, not at all. Maybe if it was a certain amount of years in prison  or life in prison she would have been given a different answer. That's something to think about, but for now according to the law she can't be tried again so she gets to be free. And it's 100 percent legal, which is a good thing I think.

I Just Want to Study Mermaids

Hello again, sorry that I haven't been around lately. I suppose I could give you some bullshit excuse about what I've been doing but the truth is that I've just been lazy and on tumb1r all the time so I haven't been updating this.

I did actually want to get a chance to talk about everyone cheering about Osama being dead, and how I don't particularly find this to be a good thing by any sense. However I waited too long and it become old news and now I feel stupid for bringing it up once more.  But if you had been wondering what my opinion on this was, there you go. I don't think it's right to cheer for the death of anyone and I think that people should become better people and forgive others, in spite of all the bad things they do because even though it's hard it will end up giving you inner peace in a way.

Another thing I wanted to talk about that's all over the internet is probably the Casey Anthony trial. Everyone is really upset with that lately too, but it's still not too late to talk about that one so I'll do that in a post following this one.

As an update you should know that I've started Uni and it's still summer so none of my friends have started yet, and that's hard.  Still I'm only taking one class and I'm having a great time.  I'm taking World Religions and it's really interesting. I have my first exam Tuesday on Hinduism and Buddhism, and I should be studying for that but I needed a break.

Anyway I've noticed that a lot of people don't really care about religions, except for their own. And I don't really think this helps anyone.  Personally I think at the root of everything, every religion is basically the same. They can basically be looked at as philosophies and they should be considered by a wider range of people because they can hold perspectives so different from your own. Just a little thought for that one. Uni is alright, I like one of my suite mates so far, and I like having my own room. I do miss home and my friends a lot, but there are enough distractions here to keep me entertained so I suppose it's not too bad. I just want to have fun and study whatever I want to study like mermaids or unicorns or just fun curious stuff. Of course that stuff would not help me get my degree by any chance.  I'll try to follow up with something more interesting. If any of you are going to Uni soon or in Uni now good luck and I wish you well my lovelies.

And The Tree Was Happy

Which was of course very good for the tree. I'm referring to the "The Giving Tree" written by Shel Silverstein. Growing up I actually had two copies of this book, because my dad had bought me a copy and so had my mom. Over the years I think I lost one because now I only have one copy but today I just wanted to talk about it.  While it seems to me that I might have personally enjoyed another story by Silverstein, such as "The Missing Piece" or "Lafcadio, The Lion Who Shot Back" better than "The Giving Tree" I certainly understood it's message.  


Basically the story of "The Giving Tree" is that where a little boy and a tree are best friends and they do everything together, such as swinging from branches, eating apples and lounging in the shade and the tree is just happy to have a friend.  When he's a young adult he no longer needs those things, he needs money now and so the tree gives him his apples to go and sell to make money. Long story short the boy is constantly taking things from the tree to support himself and when the tree thinks it's left with nothing until the old man version of the boy returns to just sit quietly, because of course we all know that's what old people do. 


As nice as this story is we need to analyze it a little. Where was this boy's parents? And why is it he talked to the tree instead of going to college to make career?  Yes it's a kids story, but seriously I don't want my child to think that everything is going to be given to them.  I want them to be happy AND independent. The Giving Tree is a symbol of how your parents will unconditionally give their child anything they ask for and never ask anything in return. Well it might sound dark, but I dare you to try to find a parent that doesn't want their kid to take care of them in their golden years. Does this mean that The Giving Tree should have ended with the old man planting the seeds of the "stump?" Well maybe not because that could lead to an awkward sexual relationship, but they could have worked with it.

Earth woman, prepare to be probed!

I thought it would be pretty fun to talk about something really normal that everyone could relate on. And that is: Dating.

I would like to get your opinions on dating as well.

I don't personally date very often but of course when I do I don't usually have too much fun. I guess that's because my "dates" always seem to take the event a little too seriously. I don't know what too many girls look forward to on dates but I personally wouldn't mind not doing anything. We could just sit at home and talk, or go to a place where we can sit and talk. But personally I don't like it when you go "to the movies" or "out to dinner" those things have been done dozens of times and it's personally boring. In movies you can't talk to the person you're out on a date with and I don't like people I'm crushing on to see me eat so that's out. I understand that young people go to the movies for a date because it's easy and there are no awkward silences, plus they're probably hoping to make out in the theater. Hey I like kissing boy just as much as the next person with a sexual preference for boys would, but you can do that anywhere and you shouldn't be too embarrassed by something like that. Originally there wasn't even a concept of dating in humanity. You just picked a mate and created spawn from that, but now we don't need to have sex to have children. Anyone can grow their own fetus with the right amount of money. So where does dating come in today? People still date to ensure that they won't end up alone, but how we choose someone today to marry is very different from how we used to pick them. These day's you don't need to be married to have sex, which is something that a lot of people want in a relationship today. So why do people still get married? Again so they don't have to be alone. At the same time it's become a farce to get married when everyone plans these crazy extravagant weddings that take away some of the joy, that I assume comes with being married. The point that I'm trying to make and having issues doing so is that young people don't really think about dating too much and it's something they need to think about before they start doing it. They need to consider how much they like the person that they're "dating" and if they can like that person as much as that person likes them; if they think about this perhaps it could end bad relationships before they start. Also I don't see the point in expecting so much from a relationship right away when it's been so short a time. What do you think?


Still dating is something that everyone eventually does. What is you're perfect date? What annoys you about dating? or just give your opinion on the subject. With Valentines day next month these topics are bound to come up. Does valentines day make you sad?

:( I hope not <3

I'm a Gemini and I'm going to stay one

Oh yeah I will be writing about THAT in this blog.

First before I get to that stupid dump on my whole childhood, there is some personal news in my life that I would just like to share. I got to speak as an Alumni at a People To People Ambassador conference. Last summer I had the lucky opportunity to be able to go to China and it was a wonderful experience that led me to get interested in international relations and the quest for world peace. World peace of course in a genuine way, and not in the corny obvious teen pageant way. I got to meet new people and enjoy the company of much younger children who were able to give me an insight to the way they live, all of which I have very thankful to have experienced. So today I spoke to new people who might be interested in taking a trip with People to People and unfortunately I had to sit through their video about where they're going and it made me very sad, because once you're 18 you can't go on anymore trips and they are going to Europe and it makes me jealous. But overall I really liked talking to them and explaining how the experience caused me to make a completely different career choice. Do you guys have any situations like that? Where something really important that came out of something that you didn't think would have that big of an effect?

Anyway back to what a lot of people are talking about, the zodiac. Like the time we learned that Pluto wasn't really a planet and "my very educated mother just served us nine pizzas" suddenly means nothing and you have to change nine to nuggets for it to mean any sense. Well just like I didn't like that I don't like this either.

http://www.myfoxtwincities.com/dpp/news/new-zodiac-sign-chart-ophiuchus-jan-13-2011

that's a link if you'd like to see an article about it, but let's talk about this a little. First of all I think that adding this constellation now is pretty stupid because apparently it's been around for years. Personally the part that I don't like is that now everyone is all switched around.

NEW ZODIAC SIGN CHART

Capricorn
January 20- to February 16

Aquarius
February 16 to March 11

Pisces
March 11 to April 18.

Aries
April 18 to May 13

Taurus
May 13 to June 21.

Gemini
June 21 to July 20

Cancer
July 20 to August 10

Leo
August 10 to September 16

Virgo
September 16 to October 30

Libra
October 30 to November 23

Scorpio
November 23 to November 29

Ophiuchus
November 29 to December 17

Sagittarius
December 17 to January 20

there are a few things that annoy me about this, the main one being that it doesn't make any sense that Scorpio is only 7 days long, that's a little odd. I also don't think that anyone not born in 2011 will use this new system. People get used in their ways and anyone who's been using the new system isn't likely to switch over anytime soon. Another thing is that I've always felt that Gemini described me better and I liked my horoscope so I'm keeping it. In the end it doesn't matter that much because I never really followed those things anyway.

Just Basics

I suppose I should do like an introduction letting you know who I am and what I'm doing here. It's a little late but I figure no one has read up until now anyway so it's okay. My name is Bianca A Montes, how conceded does it sound when I use my full name? Anyway I'm in my final year of my art high school where we are taught to think freely and yet still buckle down and follow the rules given to us by our, often misguided, superiors. I know it does sound a bit like an oxymoron but try telling my principal that. I find that I'm very opinionated but over the years I've realized that you can't just blurt out your opinions without really thinking about what you're going to say. This blog is dedicated to the use of opinions, things you CAN'T talk about with others and in general things that people give me to talk about. I've always been called blunt, but really it's just honesty and I try my best not to offend people.

Of course there are always people that are going to be offended. Sometimes I'll mention charities that I support and different ideas that I have. I think of the world like a think tank. everyone has good ideas and everyone has the potential for greatness. People just need to discover their "special" thing.

Be sure to send me messages and comments about different topics or ideas you have that you'd like me to talk about. There are no dumb ideas.